I don't know whether it is the fact that we are less than 2 months away from Kenzie's fourth birthday or maybe that Will has started to do some adorable things that are so similar to things Kenzie used to do or something else entirely that I just can't put my finger on, but lately I have seriously been realizing that time waits for no man. People talk about it all the time. How quickly this time goes. Honestly, some moments drag. Will not sleeping for almost a year seemed like 10 years. Kenzie being on Zantac for reflux for 6 months seemed like it went on for years. But at the same time, time moved so quickly and got away from me that there are things that have changed in our children and I can't remember when the transition happened.
Last night Steven and I were talking about Will's new obsession with "zooms" aka airplanes. He will literally run full speed out of the garage if he thinks he hears one and start looking so that he can see the "zoom". It reminded me that a few short months ago (I think... it might be closer to a year or so now) Kenzie was obsessed with school buses. She would run through the house from window to window watching them go by or would wave like a crazy lady when they would drive by and we were playing outside. She would yell, "School bus!!" anytime she saw them. And I wonder... when did that stop? Was I so busy dealing with life at that moment that I didn't even notice it ending? If she sees a school bus now, she tells me but there is no excitement really. It's just a matter of a fact.
Kenzie loves dress up. She still does and it's not uncommon for her to try to wear a dress up outfit to a store or outside to play. But... she no longer tries to wear dress up every hour of every day. Just today I checked on her through the monitor in her room and realized that she had her Rapunzel dress on. Typically, she would call me from her room and ask me to help her put whatever outfit she wanted on. Today, she just did it herself.
Will does this adorable thing where he sits in a chair and crosses his ankles. I know it's actually a pretty common position for a little one to sit in. Kenzie used to do it too. Her ankles were always crossed. Now, she doesn't sit like this anymore. Randomly, we will see her do it, but she doesn't do it often. I wonder how long Will is going to continue to do it. Will we notice when it ends or will it be another thing we look back at one day and think, "Huh. When did that stop?"
Don't get me wrong. I love seeing her independence grow and her learn to do more things on her own because I won't be around forever to do those things for her. Plus, I'm tired of cleaning up her room when she knows how to do it herself. =) But I get sad. I miss those moments running through the house yelling about school buses. I miss the way she used to say "tanks!" when you would give her something.
Life gets so busy. People change and grow. Those changes can be subtle. They don't just change overnight usually. But, in trying to make sure that everyone stays happy, healthy, and safe, I missed some of those changes and looking back, I'm not sure when the changes happened.
Today I was cleaning up the house some and Kenzie asked me to play with her. Initially, I told her that I was doing something but then I remembered talking to Steven last night about how she has changed and instead I sat down and asked her what she wanted to play.
I can't guarantee that I won't miss changes in the kids as they get older. I'm sure there will be moments like this when I look back and realize that some things have changed again and I miss those earlier moments. But the changes will happen. I can't stop them. I don't necessarily want to. I just want to learn to soak up the moments a bit more while they are here. They won't stay little forever. Buses will not always be exciting. Dress up with fade away. "Zooms" will one day just be airplanes but the memories of those moments will stick with me forever.
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| 2.5 year old Kenzie LOVED school buses |
Kenzie loves dress up. She still does and it's not uncommon for her to try to wear a dress up outfit to a store or outside to play. But... she no longer tries to wear dress up every hour of every day. Just today I checked on her through the monitor in her room and realized that she had her Rapunzel dress on. Typically, she would call me from her room and ask me to help her put whatever outfit she wanted on. Today, she just did it herself.
Will does this adorable thing where he sits in a chair and crosses his ankles. I know it's actually a pretty common position for a little one to sit in. Kenzie used to do it too. Her ankles were always crossed. Now, she doesn't sit like this anymore. Randomly, we will see her do it, but she doesn't do it often. I wonder how long Will is going to continue to do it. Will we notice when it ends or will it be another thing we look back at one day and think, "Huh. When did that stop?"
Don't get me wrong. I love seeing her independence grow and her learn to do more things on her own because I won't be around forever to do those things for her. Plus, I'm tired of cleaning up her room when she knows how to do it herself. =) But I get sad. I miss those moments running through the house yelling about school buses. I miss the way she used to say "tanks!" when you would give her something.
Life gets so busy. People change and grow. Those changes can be subtle. They don't just change overnight usually. But, in trying to make sure that everyone stays happy, healthy, and safe, I missed some of those changes and looking back, I'm not sure when the changes happened.
Today I was cleaning up the house some and Kenzie asked me to play with her. Initially, I told her that I was doing something but then I remembered talking to Steven last night about how she has changed and instead I sat down and asked her what she wanted to play.
I can't guarantee that I won't miss changes in the kids as they get older. I'm sure there will be moments like this when I look back and realize that some things have changed again and I miss those earlier moments. But the changes will happen. I can't stop them. I don't necessarily want to. I just want to learn to soak up the moments a bit more while they are here. They won't stay little forever. Buses will not always be exciting. Dress up with fade away. "Zooms" will one day just be airplanes but the memories of those moments will stick with me forever.
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